and you should know that whenever someone made me angry/provoke me/pissed me off ,
i will definitely write something in my post about them using vulgarities .

if you want to say it this way ,
let me tell you something .
First : everytime , when i talk to you , the 2 of us only ,
u give me cold shoulder almost everytime .
but , when you're with your clique , you're much more happy then with me .
i feel sad but still happy for you too , that's why i said nothing .
Second : you insulted me by saying that when i run 2.4km in slow motion ,
my big breasts will go "boing , boing " .
you know how much it had hurt me ?
you even told audrey they all when i said don't .
you have insulted my self esteem too .
Third : when i'm with your clique ,
you all treat me as invisible , only sometimes then you come and find me .
everytime i do something or go somewhere and i asked you all to wait for me ,
you don't . i feel so extra .
Fourth : i feel that i'm just a substitute for your clique( your 4 best friends) .
when , they said they could go out with you , you don't invite me .
when they said that they couldn't go out with you , you invite me .
what do you think i am ?
and yesterday , when you , audrey , xuanwen and me went to macdonalds ,
the 3 of you were talking to each other , laughing at each other on the way that person laugh ,
and left me out .

but all these doesn't matter as i treated you as a best buddy/friend ,
and when i thought about how you had comfort me when i cried after i got upset .
you're the only one who comfort me on that day ,
that's why all these does not matter .

and by the way ,
who collected all your homework and pass it to u ?
who waste her own time to copy the maths notes to a piece of paper and pass it to you ?
i can don't do that and you know it , but i prefered to do that as you were my best friend .
and will your 4 best friends help to collect your homework and pass it to you ?
i doubt it .

finally , all i have to say is sorry .
if u had accepted my apology , tell me .
if you don't , go with your 4 best friends and just pretend i had never exist in your life before .

P.S : you are the best buddy i had ever had in my secondary life .

i bid you goodbye .

ha .
guess where am i ,
in the school computer lab for home economics :B
i did the coursework and recipe ,
so i have nothing left to do :D
lol ,
i so bad 
behind miss yanti come here post .
but nevermind ,
at least i'm happy :x
maths class test is going to come ,
and i'm super scared okay .
algebra ._.
okay ,
i need to go already .

bye !

so what if i want to buy a guess wallet ?
what's wrong with you ?
just because u bought it before me ,
and introduce it to me ,
i know it long ago ,
i never buy the wallet that's all .
so if u bought that wallet and told someone u bought this guess wallet ,
that person go and buy it ,
that person is a copycat ?
get your fact right .
guess is also not your brand .
not only you can buy .
i'm super fed up with you .
what the fuck do you want ?!
everything i do , buy ,
after u introduce to me ,
so i'm a copycat ?!
what fucking logic is this .
seriously ,
you fucking hard to please _|_
BIATCH .

" The Shadow of the Wind " is freaking nice book .
it's so exciting , even though i read only 100+ pages .
okay , so , someone introduce me the game cabal ,
went to the website , downloaded it .
well , quite fun , as i have nothing to do during the holidays .
i lost my english newspaper review , and the maths review question 3 ,
from question 7 onwards , i don't know how to do .
no matter how hard i tried , the answer still wrong , so i gave up .
shall wait until my elder brother come back home from university :D .
bored bored bored .
wanted to go out with katharine but , no money .
father also don't want to give me my money ):
BAD DADDY . D:
so i have to stay at home and rot >.<
katharine got read my livejournal !
yay !
LOL . so dumb ._.
shall stop posting here ,
oh yah , my blog's dead -> http://bittersweet--nostalgia.blogspot.com .
removed the tagbox . livejournal's better .
(:
bye .

okay ,
i'm freaking pissed off and mad right now .
i had lost my wallet , contained with $30++ inside with cards that are worth 40 bucks !
that wallet was my favourite wallet which cost $33 .'
i don't freaking care about my money .
i just hope someone nice will return my wallet with my cards in it !
TT .
i bet you will say that i'm naive but , i really like that wallet TT !
if that person does not return me my wallet ,
i will curse that person ,
i guess ,
until that person returns it to me ):
i bet it was some pickpocket ! D:
i borrowed 3 THICK library books , but i'm too lazy to read , i guess :x
maybe will read now , sooner or later . :\
i bought lots of things from online shopping and today ,
i just realise i havd bought so many things that i don't even have enought money for it . -_-
so i had to canceled lots of order .
eeps . Dx
sorry !

bored . holidays = nothing to do with lots of homework .
read books ? :\ dunnoe ><
okay , better not bored you with my stuffs , bye !

ah ,
bored right now ,
playing viwawa .
i know i'm lame and stupid but nothing kills my boredom ):
nothing in my computer is nice to play TT .
i totally have nothing to kill boredom at home but to sleep ,
which i hate , except only in school / class :B .
i want to exercise !
today , i didn't exercise .
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD !
i can't sleep without exercising .
i cannot exercise as i have pain in my leg's muscles ,
my hip bone , and my thigh D:
let me exercise , please .
if i don't exercise ,
i will feel weird and fat ><
HELP !
bored bored ~
maths is definitely torturous ,
homework homework ,
AGAIN .
STACKS , EVERYDAY .
10.36 p.m , can't wait until holiday .
which by then , i can exercise :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD !!!
lol ,
today ,
i tied my hair into a high pony tail again .
i used my hair to push my ear to the back .
well , i know it sounds retard but i seriously seriously hate my ear ):
i want a normal ear , not a monkey ear .
argh !
i want to cut my ear >_> .
maybe i going in to audition ,
which is so stupid with those new " popular " audition - ers ,
using those old bunker's / audition - ers' names .
hello ?!
have some sense of originality please , if you do not like people calling you a fake ,
then , don't copy people's name in the first place .
and the names are getting more and more stupid .
whenever , you see the mega ,
the name will be something like DABIAN , etc .
and continuously , there will be names like what ? ,
xiao bian , lao sai ?!
u will definitely laugh hysterically .
so stupid -_-
LAMERS .
come flame me ,
i don't give a damn , as it's a fact , dumbasses .
okay , my mother is going to chant now , shall sign off at this point (:

tata ~

seriously ,
i don't really practice what i preach all the time .
who does ?
okay , so maybe some ,
but most people don't isn't it ?
i deleted my cbox from my blog ,
as i could not stand that dog called eveline ,
i guess ,
spamming .
she nags even more then my grandmother when she's only 14 years old ! !_!
she is so thick skinned please .
people asked her politely to leave ,
she still stayed and kept spamming my blog .
hello ? dog please grow up bitch .
i bet you're just a fat , ugly girl who cannot even go on a diet ,
as you eat fast food every single day .
plus , you're just jealous that people can go on a diet while you can't .
HAHA .
you're so scared that you don't even dare to come find me ,
and talk to me in the face .
scared that i might call u fat or too skinny ?
:o
and you really think that your english is that good , NOT okay .
go and get a life ,
oops , i forgot , you don't have a life ,
so just go to hell (:

so yeah ,
i think i know who was spamming my blog .
it so irritating please .
it's from my class ,
at least .
if not ,
it should be from my school .
oh , did i just said it ?
yeah ,
it's a dog , as it keeps hiding itself ,
behind the computer ,
and doesn't have a name .
too bad for that person .
katharine's down with chicken pox ,
and i promised her that i will help her collect her homework ,
and visit her every weekday .
she's my good friend in the class ,
so ,
if i don't help her , who would ?
no offence .
maybe i will sign of from here . .
sigh .

SCHOOL CONFESSIONS ♥
[x]Talked back to a teacher.
[x]Been kicked out of class.
[ ] Worn pajamas to school.
[x] Had your tooth fall out at school.
[x] Gotten lost in your school.
[ ] Broken the dress code in school.
[x] Completely failed a test.
[x] Left class without asking.
[x] Missed a whole week of school.
[x] Thrown up in school.(drink the expired HL milk sold in school)
[x] Been beat up at school.)


HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS ♥
[x] Argue with your parent(s) a lot.
[x] Argue with your brother(s) a lot.
[x] Argue with your sister(s) a lot.
[x] Have your own room.
[x] Do your own laundry.
[x] Cook dinner once in a while.( maggi for everyone ! lawls . )
[x] Are loud and obnoxious at home.
[ ] Wear pajamas when you are not going anywhere.
[ ] You sleep in very long.
[ ] All you do is watch television.
[ ] Your parents are divorced.
[ ] One or both of your grandparents live with you.


FRIEND CONFESSIONS ♥
[x] You currently dislike one or more of your friends.
[x]You are jealous of one or more of your friends.
[x]You have known a friend your whole life.
[ ] Your friends are all taller than you.
[ ] You have been ditched by a friend.
[x] You have memorized a friends phone number.
[x]u have lost/forgotten a friends phone number.
[ ] You have been to all of your friends houses.


HABIT CONFESSIONS ♥
[x] You bite your nails.
[ ] You have an odd obsession with giraffes.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door closed.
[x] You cannot sleep with the door open.
[x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand.


LOVE CONFESSIONS ♥
[ ]You currently like someone.
[x] You want to kill one of your exes.
[x]You can stay committed for an unusually long time.(maybe)
[x] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf easily.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you a bitch before.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you self-centered before.


PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS ♥
[x] You hate George Bush.
[x] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal.
[x] Boys make better friends than girls do.
[x] The beach is an excellent place for a date.
[ ] Pink is an ugly color.
[x] Needles aren't so horrible.

HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS ♥
[x] Fallen down the stairs.(
[ ] Someone has tied your shoelaces together.
[x] Had a nail fall off.
[ ] Had surgery.
[x] Slapped someone across the face.
[ ]Killed someone.
[ ] Someone has called you a tease.
[ ]You have been to Europe.
[x] You have worn something inside out for a whole day




WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
cause i'm me .

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
oh , that's not my problem is it ?

LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY. YOU'LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME
as if .

COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO
stop exaggerating .

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
i didn't even do my math homework .

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
oh . .

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
because it's like that .

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
no .

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
oh i just knew .

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU
yeah right .

I CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
then how do you smile in front the camera ?

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST AREN'T HIM/HER
did i even do anything ?

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
who are you ?

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE
sure

MAY I ESCORT YOU
sure

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW
who ?

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED
oh , but you're not everything i wanted .

WHEN WILL I GET UR SWEET EYES?
when i die .


1.Do you like anyone?: no .
2. Are you flirty: don't think so .
3. Are you a player?: maybe ?
4. Would you get back together with any of your ex's?: no .
5. Have you ever kissed anyone on your top friends?: wanted , but she didn't want it ):
6. Do you want a valentine?: Yeah from my mother (:
7. Have you slept over at the opposite sex's house?: no .
8. Do you prefer group dates or single ones?: both .
9. Would you kiss light or make-out sessions?: more or light and a lil bit of make-out :x
10. Do you like cuddling up while watching a movie?: yeah , i guess .
11. Any plans for valentines day?: went out
12. What's the best valentines day present for a girl?: candies ? ( fattening btw ) money ? flowers ?
13. For a guy?: money .
14. Are you single or taken?: single

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LATTE !!
<3 much love (:
well ,
this morning i woke up at 9 ,
i'm not sure why ,
as i had slept late yesterday .
wanted to start my diet today ,
but tempatation ):
my mother bought 'bak kut teh' and 'you tiao' .
ate one small piece and LOTS of 'you tiao' .
my dog was like barking like a maniac ,
so that we will give her eat .
we didn't gave her at first ,
as she's already very fat and i really mean VERY FAT ,
as in those kind of obesity , or you can say overweight .
okay ,
we gave up .
she's too noisy ,
even though we asked her to shut up .
i think i will skip that part .
i was going to meet latte at 11.30 am .
when i sms-ed her at 10 plus ,
she said that she was already on the train as the movie ,
" L Change The World " ,
is at 11.30 am .
i was like , oh my god .
i didn't know !
i was panicking ,
i sms-ed her and said that she did not told me that !
but , i said that if it's like that ,
i shall meet her after the show .
went to dhoby ghaut ,
and straight away went to the arcade .
i hate bunk now ,
alot .
saw waynn(like that) and yi zhen , my gorilla crapper (xiaoxing).
when i just walked in ,
i thought who was that girl playing with waynn .
until they played finish and i saw that it was yi zhen .
she changed her hairstyle .
and it has been so long since i saw her .
gave her a hug ,
like duh ?
after that ,
she went to watch " Jumper " with her stead .
lol .
sms-ed latte .
she said that her show was just over and she was walking back to bunk .
a few minutes later ,
i went to bunk to find her ,
could not find her ,
went back to arcade .
and i kept repeating that pattern .
until , latte came to the arcade .
hugged her !
<33333
hoho .
said happy birthday to her and gave her the present .
went to bunk to sing her happy birthday song .
at first ,
sang softly ,
the second time ,
we(old bunkers) sing loudly .
lawls .
the flavour of the cake is mocha ,
which latte said that it was her good friend .
lmaos .
well ,
i didn't ate the cake .
fattening i guess .
well ,
xiaoxing came back to arcade .
she and waynn bought a doggie soft toy for latte .
and we went home .
that's all .
lazy to write .
yesterday ,
i completed my record of climbing 100 stories in one go [ common sense , no buildings in singapore are 100 stories high , climb 10 times up lar ! ]
._.
today too !
hehheh .
okay okay .
shall not bored you all anymore .
BYE !

yay !
i finally did my first livejournal layout ,
with some help of course .
<3
but ,
maybe i keep this livejournal as a secret first .
only allow some to come .
not sure too .
but i'm happy :D

seriously ,
i think that i'm always left out whenever there's an outing or something else ,
in my class .
example ,
last year .
karin asked almost everyone to go out as a class to kbox ,
and guess what ?
i heard it ,
she looked at me and ignored me .
she still continued to asked other people .
WTFH .
i'm so freaking pissed off okay .
and another thing is ,
today i just know that there's a class blog for our class .
sharmain didn't even invited me .
i bet she only invite almost the whole class except for me .
i know that she does not like me .
why must she act when it's already so obvious .

hope i would grow skinnier for 2 - 4 months of diet ,
nobody know my this livejournal now ,
i think ,
hope my figure won't go away except the weight ):